February 23rd, 2002



Well, here it is, Friday night.. erm, Saturday morning. I should have gotten my work done much earlier, and then gone to bed. Instead, I pissed away my time earlier tonight playing games and watching a movie. I guess it was worth it, I enjoyed it and all, but now I'm not going to get very much sleep tonight. In fact, nightskyre is suggesting I stay up longer, so I only sleep for 3 hours before I get up for my 10 AM meeting with my IQP partners. According to him, if you get 4 hours, you'll stay asleep, but if you get 3, you'll be able to wake up.. or something like that.

I'm really nervous about my IQP team getting everything ready in the next week. Our proposal is due to our advisor on Tuesday, and to our professor and the IGSD (Interdisciplinary and Global Studies Division/Department) on Wednesday by noon. In other words, this is pretty much our last chance to make changes, and it sounds like our advisor, at least, was not incredibly happy with what we've had so far. I really want this project to succeed... I REALLY want to go to London. I'm scared that they'll still be able to kick us off, and I'll be stuck in Worcester, trying frantically to arrange classes and things for next term.

I am glad I had fun tonight. Even though I still made sure I got work done on our paper, I did relax & enjoy myself most of the night. I really needed that. I hope the guys will let me play another game or two before I collapse, and drag myself up again before 9.
  • Current Music
    the voices in my head ;)

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Geez, I still haven't gone to bed. WTF is wrong with me? Ah well, I'll be nice and tired for my meeting in 3 1/2 hours.. oh wait, that's not a good thing....

I think I'll just get up and eat a little something, then show up up there.... after we're done, I'll either shower or go back to sleep, depending on which feels more important at the time.
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    sleepy sleepy

Damn it all.

Well, maybe last night wasn't so great. I knew staying up so late was a horrible idea, and this was held out by the fact that I just woke up, which makes me TWO HOURS late to my group meeting. Contacted one of my group members, they're already done meeting. I may go and try to find the other one, so I can at least see the comments that our professor made. Of course, the copy our advisor corrected is completely unavailable, as it is "right outside his office" in a building that is locked every night and all weekend.

I am so mad at myself for not waking up remotely on time for this. I know that by the time I was even considering bed, it couldn't be helped, but I'm still guilty. I'm especially pissed because I'm supposed to be gone the rest of the weekend until Monday afternoon, and this is due Tuesday. How the hell are we ever going to get it done on time?

WTF do I do now? I can't just let this go, it bothers me too much. But there doesn't seem to be a solution at this point, although I've told my partners I'm willing to skip one of my classes and meet all afternoon on Monday if we need to. It doesn't satisfy me though. I screwed up, and I can't fix it. This could be the kind of mistake that gets us truly kicked out of the project. If that is the case, my partners are going to kill me. What can I do? Take the copy and edit it all by myself over the next day or two? Damn, damn, damn.
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    Stabbing Westward - Wasted

Much better now...

This will be a quick entry. I calmed down earlier, as I realised there was not much else I could do. I just now met with one of my partners and went over the corrected copies we have. I made a few changes, then sent him the section I added to last night. I am feeling much better about our chances of making this as good as we can. We do need to get in a copy Monday morning, which I hope my partners will be able to handle, but I think they'll be ok.

I'm even looking forward now to being in New Hampshire and getting away from this school for a day or so ;)

!depressed AND !pissed == happy $nitro

yeah, I'm a geek.
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    Get Away Jordan - Take 6