May 29th, 2002


I have a job?

Well.. I'm nervous. I have a job (supposedly) lined up, and I start tomorrow. Good news: the pay is about as good as I expected I could find ($9/hr)... Bad news: I have to get there by 7:30am, and I'm not even sure how far away it is yet. I really wish I had a car, it would make looking for a job so much easier. I mean, I guess I may be able to get rides from nightskyre, but I don't want to depend on him to do that all the time, it just doesn't seem fair.

My mom nagged me on the phone last night about moving up here and not finding a good job, etc. Not that I didn't expect it, but I was really hoping she would continue to be supportive once I was here... that doesn't really seem to be the case.

I can't wait to get out and be working, so I have something to do all day, even if it means I won't be able to hang out w/ other people much at night (cuz I'll have to get up in the morning). I'm also looking forward to being self-sufficient; depending on nightskyre and other friends is better than leeching off my parents, but just barely. I want to know that I can provide for myself, albeit in a limited way. That said, I'm not looking forward to the apartment I'm sharing with DarlingCat and Dena (no pseudonym, sorry). It's going to be rough, as according to the terms of the lease, neither Dena nor I should be living there. Not to mention sharing a bedroom... or not having any furniture (bed, dresser, etc.) to use. I pray that everything will work out this summer, that I won't go insane, and that I'll actually enjoy the benefits (to me) of living in Worcester.
  • Current Music
    Star Wars video game that nightskyre's playing

Job? apartment? future?

I'm kind of depressed. On one hand, I'm glad to be out of the house, away from my mom and that whole situation. On the other, it sucks to really find a job and/or a place to live, and to be happy with that "choice". I guess that's part of it, too.. I don't feel like I have a choice. I was only able to find one place at all feasible for me to live. Of course, there's still a huge chance I could get kicked out of there. But I haven't been able to find anywhere else in the area. I don't have any furniture, either, so I'll likely be sleeping on the floor, with my clothes in a huge duffel bag, or maybe I'll be lucky enough to have a shelf or a single drawer.

And then there's the job. I was supposed to go to the temp agency that got me the Jiffy Lube job this afternoon to pick up my time card and maybe get some more information. Well, I didn't get there in time. So I get to show up tomorrow early morning at the job, apologise profusely, and admit that I have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing. I really hope they're a truly equal-opportunity employer - I'm looking forward to being a "grease-monkey", instead of having to sit an office or something because I'm a woman and they think I'm incapable of doing that kind of work. Heck, I know as much or more about cars than most of the guys I know... not to say that's a lot, but it's more than the general public. *sigh* I'm just full of angst at the moment, I guess...

I also feel really bad for being so mad at nightskyre earlier.
  • Current Music
    Ozzy Osbourne - Goodbye to Romance