I've been quite a loner lately. I like being alone sometimes, and I can still enjoy it somewhat here, but I can't handle it all the time. When it gets too bad, I let myself get dragged places I don't really want to go, with people I couldn't care less about.
I tell myself I'm lonely here, that I wish my friends were here. This is all true. However, I think to myself - why don't I make some friends here? I think the real answer is that I don't WANT to. I don't want to be friends with any of the people here. Casual acquaintances, sure. The kind you go out with when you've got nothing else to do. But I'm not ready to open myself up to any of them. Not to the level I do with my friends. I think that's the root of my problem.
I just can't motivate myself to go anywhere alone. But I need to get out of the flat and do something fun. I have to get out of here tomorrow. Only 5 weeks left. Only 5 weeks.